Oh lord, I think I'm falling, to my disbelief.
I'm cursing like a sailor and lying like a thief.
It's hard to heed the calling from the better side of me
When I'm blaming everybody else and no one's coming clean.

Oh lord, can you see my thick skin wearing thin,
And the demons of a lesser me are beckoning me in?
Those who gathered around me - I'm watching them all leave,
Because I am my own ragged company.

You can take a trip to China or take a boat to Spain,
Take a blue canoe around the world and never come back again,
But traveling don't change a thing, it only makes it worse
Unless the trip you take is in to change your cruel course.
Because every town's got a mirror, and every mirror still shows me
That I am my own ragged company.

Oh lord it's lonely, lord it's mighty cold,
And I don't want to live this way,
Afraid of growing old.

It's hard to heed the warning when you cannot see the crime.
The only way to remember is to forget in a rhyme.
And I'm scared to tread the red road that leads to Galilee,
Because I am my own ragged company.

Why is the standard save icon still a 3 1/4" floppy disk?

Even in 2008?

( Another one?! Someone stop me from stealing these from Anna! )

So I'm trying to stay awake so I can go to the grocery store at midnight to buy my first legal alcohol. Sue me. Seriously, I'd win, man.

I am really tired of people assuming that I'm incapable.


I'm tired of me assuming that I'm incapable.
Until, of course, it's too late to prove that stigma wrong. Even (or especially) if it is wrong.




On another note, I've realized this evening that I fall in love with everything I do. This poses a problem when you love too many things and can't focus on any one to perfect, so you are only capable of doing everything, and not particularly good at any one or two things. When I decide I want to focus on a specific area of study or skillset, I get distracted by the next exciting subject. From the beginning of my studies at Webster, I have considered a minor in web design, web development, art, media literacy, psychology, and video. Not to mention that I fell in love with japanese, religious studies, the back-end of interactive media, as well as traditional animation, 2-d animation, 3-d animation, and even graphic design. I suppose it's a good thing that I want to learn. The problem, once again, is that I get distracted learning these new things before I can start really honing my skills in any particular area. Maybe it's time I try.

Or maybe I should just keep learning everything and become the smartest girl in the world.